Friday, May 28, 2021

15 Tips to Jerk Off Better

Out ~ Master Bators: 15 Tips to Jerk Off Better From the Experts

By Alexander Cheves | May 28, 2021
For me, a good solo session falls somewhere in the heavy overlap between filth and prayer. I nearly always make a mess — lube stains on my sheets and cum on my floor. When was the last time you had a really incredible jackoff that left you in the bit of a stupor? 
May is National Masturbation Month, and hopefully you’ve been enjoying it whether or not you know we were in the midst of an auspicious season. May 7th is actually the official Masturbation Day, set in 1995 by sex-positive retailer Good Vibrations in honor of Surgeon General Joycelyn Elders, who was fired by President Bill Clinton in 1994 for suggesting masturbation be part of the sex education curriculum for students. 
Now, of course, most sex therapists, public health workers, and other experts would agree with Elders. But to be honest, for most of us self pleasure is something we don’t experiment with — we’ve figured out what works at a younger age and just rinse and repeat. But there’s more out there.
Here’s some advice on how to jerk off better from a few people in the business of pleasure — people who make erotic content, escort, and help others professionally with sexual hangups.

1. Get loud.

Alexander Lederman describes himself as a father, husband, and amateur farmer. On Instagram, his rustic life in rugged, woodsy settings looks idyllic and peaceful, but his pics are interspersed with sexy modeling shots — he’s a popular OnlyFans model with a large social media following and is known for his solo jackoff videos. (He even has a small product line.) 
Lederman recommends being loud, even when you are by yourself. “Talk,” he says. “Be vocal. Live in the fantasy you want happening.” I found Lederman through one of his devoted followers and OnlyFans subscribers, who praised Lederman’s videos as “the best jackoffs I’ve ever seen.”

2. Involve all parts of your body.

Queer sex therapist and former sex worker Amariah Love has helped many clients with masturbation struggles, and she says to decentralize masturbation from one sex organ or one part of the body. 
“I think it’s really important for folks to experiment with all kinds of different stimulation while masturbating,” she says. “Experiment with anal, vaginal, clitoral, nipples, thighs, and so on. We all have our own combinations that give us the most fun, and the better we know our bodies, the better all sex will be, both with ourselves and with others.” 
So feel free to give your chest a rub, arch your back, and get into it just like you would any other sex act.

3. Explore edging.

Edging can be done yourself, or with others. “Edging is bringing [someone] right up to orgasm but backing off,” says KB, a dominant BDSM master in Chicago who, according to his Twitter, enjoys “reprogramming dumb, bound jocks.” 
“With edging,” he says, “the orgasm is explosive.” 
KB is known on for his videos with his sex slave, mega-popular gay pornstar Devin Franco. In these videos, which are available on JustForFans, he regularly edges Franco for hours, denying Franco’s orgasm repeatedly, or wasting Franco’s orgasms entirely — something many masturbation fetishits online are really into (you can find many jackoff videos of guys “wasting” their orgasm). A “wasted” orgasm is when someone comes or ejaculates but does not feel orgasm, and this is usually achieved by prolonging the pre-orgasm pleasure for too long. It usually leaves the victim feeling frustrated and unsatisfied. 
But edging doesn’t have to involve BDSM, and it can just be a solo endeavor. The trick is working yourself as close as you can to the limit and then allowing yourself to cool down before doing it again. Experts even “coast,” or work themselves to the limit and keep themselves there for as long as possible.

4. Find toys that you love and bring them into your sessions.

Amariah Love prefers Lelo vibrators and strongly recommends these for folks with vaginas. “They create a kind of suction that just feels better than traditional vibrators, and they are much easier to hold in place,” she says. 
I’m a big fan of big toys. As a pretty devoted bottom, I regularly play with toys to give myself pleasure and practice for vigorous sex and/or fisting. Some years ago, when I exclusively bottomed, I reached a point where I could not orgasm without something in my butt — so anal toys were needed every time I masturbated. And this was so hot! I love butt plugs, particularly ones from SquarePeg and Hankey’s Toys
There are also toys that are more phallus-centric. There’s simple things like cockrings or Fleshjacks. The only way you’ll know if they will stroke your fancy is to give them a try.

5. If you have a penis, explore milking.

Milking, according to Kinkly, is “the act of massaging a man’s prostate gland through his anus to encourage him to ejaculate as much seminal fluid as possible.” The term “milking” and the action associated with it are most commonly used in the gay BDSM community, though not exclusively. 
Milking can be experienced solo and outside of fetish scenes, usually with prostate-stimulating toys. I used to work at a major sex toy supplier and these kinds of toys — called P-spot toys by most adult retailers — were top-sellers. Our customers trained themselves to cum harder and heavier with these products (I know because I read the emails they sent back to us). 
In BDSM, milking is usually done with milking machines and other fetish tools as a form of erotic torture for a bound submissive — Devin Franco is often put in these situations by KB. “My milking machine controls the orgasm if it even happens,” KB says.  
Some of the most talented don’t need any toys for milking: if you or someone you know can find your prostate, generally located somewhere within the first few inches of your anal cavity, and continue to stimulate it with their finger, that also works.

6. Devote extra time to your solo sessions.

For Love, there’s nothing better than “a Saturday afternoon to myself, a big empty bed, several toys, plenty of water, and a few favorite erotic stories to read and videos to watch.” She’s learned to devote extra time to herself as part of a broader focus on self-care, particularly during the pandemic — something which, as a therapist, she regularly talks about with her clients.
“Setting aside a block of time to be alone and taking the time to masturbate slowly and intentionally can be a wonderful act of self-care,” she says. “For a lot of us, drawing out the process — using techniques like edging — means you not only get to enjoy jerking off longer, but your orgasm is more intense and lengthy as well. I know for me, there’s a big difference between a quickie before bed to help me get sleepy and the excitement I feel when I have a Saturday afternoon to myself.”

7. Change the time of day that you masturbate.

“For me, a big obstacle was getting over the ‘oh just jerk off before bed’ idea, which comes from years of hiding it in my teenage room,” says Joe Spaceman, also known as SIXFOOTFIVEGUY, an OnlyFans star with “a monster bulge that I can't keep my hands off of.” 
“Getting over that idea took time. I learned to let myself jerk off after the gym or at 3 pm or whenever the mood struck.” 
Spaceman no longer feels like he has to jerk off before bed every night to be satisfied. “Sometimes it’s better to not force it and save things for a better day.” 
Make your sessions a date with yourself. Start it all off with intention.

8. Go down the hypnosis rabbit hole.

Spaceman loves hypnosis videos and audio files, which are readily available online and designed for masturbators — and yes, some OnlyFans content creators make them. While the science is vague (at best) about whether or not someone can actually be hypnotized, least of all from a video online, hypnosis masturbators — hypnobators — say they can be put in trance-like states with these videos and masturbate for extended periods of time. 
“There have been some hypnosis audio files that I’ve had good success with checking out of my brain and being able to focus on the pleasure buildup,” Spaceman says. “I have someone that sends me tracks and I find that they help me focus and let some of the loud parts of my brain shut up for a bit. It’s almost like a sexy meditation.” 

9. Get into popperbating.

Popperbating is a common practice of masturbating with poppers — a chemical inhalant drug regularly sold under names like “room odorizers,” “videotape cleaner,” even “leather cleaner.” The term “poppers” is a slang term applied broadly to chemical drugs called alkyl nitrites that are inhaled, and they are mostly harmless, but they are banned for human consumption in the U.K. and the U.S. That has not, stopped the underground sale of slightly-altered chemical compounds that produce largely the same results — you can find these in sex shops and online across the United States.
The problem is that poppers, being illegal and therefore unable to be advertised as such, are a heavily unregulated industry and many counterfeits are sold with chemicals that are dangerous — some of which have even caused retinal damage and vision loss. 
Popperbators enjoy huffing poppers repeatedly in long, drawn-out masturbation sessions, usually while watching porn. Poppers usually produce a head rush — feelings of warmth, dizziness, lightheadedness, and euphoria. Most poppers will dilate blood vessels and make your blood pressure drop, which can cause dizziness and can make you pass out. Using poppers with blood pressure medication can be deadly, and it’s commonly known that you should never use poppers while taking erectile dysfunction pills — medications like Viagra also make your blood pressure drop and the combination can be lethal. All this said, I enjoy poppers almost every time I have sex. 
“Personally, I love how poppers enhance the masturbation process, and I’ve been popperbating for a long time,” says @everydayb8.

10. Experiment with different kinds of lube.

Amariah Love likes using scented oils. I personally think there’s nothing hotter than masturbation with someone else’s cum, which really can only be done with someone else present. For my solo times, I keep a bottle silicone lube by the bed. 
“I like to use Albolene as lube, which is pretty standard in the masturbating community,” says @everydayb8. “It’s affordable and long-lasting!”

11. Allow yourself and your fantasies to evolve.

Muscular gay pornstar @LivingLargerXXX knows a thing or two about transformation — he’s been into muscle growth and injecting silicone into his dick and balls (which is a fetish) since 2017. He describes himself as a dominant daddy, keyholder (for gay submissive men into chastity), and fisting top who posts videos on both OnlyFans and JustForFans.
“After getting silicone, I had to relearn how to use my cock and balls for masturbation,” he says. “My abilities and how I derived pleasure changed. And it was initially scary and depressing and it took me a while to figure out how to do those things with my new body.” 
He adapted — and over time, through experimentation, he learned other things about himself. “My tastes in men and what I'm attracted to and turned on by has gone through at least two visible shifts and is possibly entering a third,” he says. “Continual re-evaluation of how and what turns you on is important. Allow yourself the freedom to explore and accept sexual interests that aren't always what other people find attractive.”

12. Focus more on your own internal fantasies than porn.

“I think masturbation is a kind of self-love that is most animalistic, raw, and visceral,” says @everydayb8. “Even with porn as stimulation, you need to draw deep within yourself to experience the lust in the exact way you want it.” 
Jackoff enthusiast @everydayb8 gives this advice for people who want to make their masturbation better: discover what your way is, your own private ritual. Personalize your masturbation. “No two people will ever masturbate the same way and I think that is the charm to such idiosyncrasies.” The true joy of masturbation, he says, is that it is, at its simplest, a private journey of self-discovery. “It’s getting into a headspace and allowing your self the luxury of discovering your sexuality on an incredibly nuanced level.” 

13. Explore other ways to experience eroticism.

This bit of advice is from me: work on detangling eroticism from orgasm. An erotic experience doesn’t just happen when you’re masturbating or having sex — it can happen in a store, in an art gallery, on the street, anywhere you are turned on and tuned in to your fantasies.
The joy of seeing eroticism this way is that every time I go outside my apartment, I am open to the possibility of a hot little encounter — some form of engagement with the world that lights my inner fireworks. Cruising a handsome man on the street or engaging with erotic art can be better than a quick jerk off before bed. 
I admittedly masturbate a lot less now, because it’s not the only way I get off day-to-day. But when I do masturbate, I do everything I can to make it count — and delaying makes them even better. Waiting a few days to a week between jerk-offs makes mine much more intense when they happen.

14. Remember that your brain is your biggest sex organ.

Amariah Love thinks everyone needs to keep this in mind, even if the phrase itself admittedly sounds a little cliché. “I can create intense sensations just by imaging I am stroking my clit, and I have brought myself to orgasm without touching myself twice,” she says. After all, she says, sexual pleasure — whether it’s happening solo or with someone else — exists only in the mind, not the body. “What’s going on in my mind completely determines how the physical touch feels.” 
She thinks that much discourse around masturbation is centered on bodies and parts, which can be difficult and triggering for transender and nonbinary folks. She regularly reminds her clients that if self-touching and body-centric pleasure is too uncomfortable, the mind is still free space to play — it is for everyone. 

15. If you have feelings of shame or guilt after masturbation — as many people do — do some scientific research.

Masturbation enthusiast @everydayb8 has a masturbation-exclusive OnlyFans (described as “b8topia”) and large Twitter following of fellow jackoff fanatics. “I came from a semi-traditional Asian upbringing, and while my parents never really brainwashed me that [masturbation] is something bad, the lack of communication in sexuality made me think it’s some kind of forbidden fruit,” he says. “So when I first discovered masturbation and ejaculating, I naturally thought I did something wrong!” 
This was before the internet existed, and @everydayb8 explained that he actually went to libraries to check out books about human anatomy and sexual reproduction. “It helped me gain a scientific ground on things and reshaped my perspectives.”



What Has Changed Since NYT's "Scientific Quest to Prove Bisexuality Exists"

This article is from 2019 . . .

What Has Changed Since NYT's "Scientific Quest to Prove Bisexuality Exists"  ~   By Ian Lawrence-Tourinho | March 23, 2019

In early March 2014, I received a phone call from the New York Times asking if I’d be willing to have my picture used on the cover of their weekly magazine.
In that second, I went through dozens of emotions in rapid succession. At first, I felt naked, exposed, and afraid. This was for a cover story about bisexuality. And my picture on that magazine would mean that my face, my name, and my bisexuality would be on display for tens of millions of people.
This was early in my tenure as Director of the American Institute of Bisexuality. While I was out to most of the important people in my life, this moment brought back all kinds of feelings from a decade earlier: of sitting down at the Thanksgiving table, of knowing the time had come for me to tell my parents that I am bi, of wondering if this revelation would change my relationship with them forever.
I felt terrified. Intellectually, I knew saying yes was the right thing to do and I was deeply honored, especially since bi activism is my calling. But still, part of me wanted to stick to old habits, born out of survival during the intense homophobia of the 80s and 90s. A big part of me wanted to keep the option of staying in the closet. I was afraid to let go of the ability to control who knew, and who didn’t know, about my bisexuality.
Long story short, this happened:
Despite my initial terror, the experience wound up being overwhelmingly positive. Although my parents weren’t thrilled at me broadcasting my “proclivities” to the world, my friends raced to their local newsstand or Starbucks, bought copies, and posted photos to social media. Old friends from college and high school, people I hadn’t spoken to in years — some of whom are pretty conservative — wrote me, saying they’d read the article and found it moving and informative. Cousins with whom I’d never shared my full, real self out of fear they’d reject me said they were proud we were related.
The magnitude of the article’s impact soon became clear to me. This was going to take awareness of bisexuality to a new level. The New York Time’s audience sprawls across America, this is “The Newspaper of Record”. This story brought the concept of bisexuality into their living rooms, onto their computers and phones, and into their consciousness.
The article was titled “The Scientific Quest to Prove Bisexuality Exists”. I would have called it “The Scientific Quest to Understand Bisexuality”, but admittedly that probably wouldn’t have garnered even a fraction of the attention. But whatever the packaging, mainstream audiences across North America and beyond were now learning key Bi-101 lessons such as:

More people identify as bi than gay or lesbian, we are the “invisible majority”
You’ll also hear about bi erasure, the idea that bisexuality is systematically minimized and dismissed. This is especially vexing to bi activists, who point to a 2011 report by the Williams Institute — a policy center specializing in L.G.B.T. demographics — that reviewed 11 surveys and found that “among adults who identify as L.G.B., bi people comprise a slight majority.” 

Many bi people never come out, or find it easier to identify as gay or straight later in life

Bi people are so unlikely to be out about their orientation — in a 2013 Pew Research Survey, only 28 percent of people who identified as bi said they were open about it — that the San Francisco Human Rights Commission recently called them “an invisible majority” in need of resources and support.

Bi people face discrimination from both the gay and straight communities

Studies have found that straight-identified people have more negative attitudes about bi people (especially bi men) than they do about gays and lesbians, but A.I.B.’s board members insist that some of the worst discrimination and minimization comes from the gay community.

Bisexuality does not reinforce the gender binary

The moderators defined bisexuality as being attracted “to one or more genders”.

Despite stereotypes to the contrary, nearly equal numbers of men transition from bi to gay identity as gay to bi

Diamond had her subjects, who were between 18 and 35, fill out an extensive questionnaire about their sexual attractions and identity at various points in their lives. She was surprised to find that almost as many men transitioned at some point from a gay identity to a bi, queer or unlabeled one, as did from a bi identity to a gay identity.

Sexuality is fluid for both men and women

At a conference in Austin in February, [Lisa Diamond] presented a paper that summarized the initial findings from her survey of 394 people — including gay men, lesbians, bi men and women and heterosexual men and women. It was called: “I Was Wrong! Men Are Pretty Darn Sexually Fluid, Too!”

Sexual orientation is made up of identity, attraction, and behavior, all of which are distinct and incomplete on their own.

“I ask male youth, ‘Can a guy have sex with a guy once and not be gay,’ and they say: ‘Of course. He could be bi, or straight, or just trying,’” Anderson said. “When I interview young men about their identity, I hear a lot of, ‘I’m mostly straight,’ or ‘I hookup with a guy every once in a while.’ These guys don’t usually identify as bi, but some of them will tell me: ‘I’m not really sure what I am. Maybe I am bi.’”

Physical attraction and romantic attraction are separate things

He told me about one young man he interviewed whose arousal looked “extraordinarily gay” in the lab. But he was romantically interested in only women. “He falls madly in love with girls all over the place,” Savin-Williams said, “and it’s not because he hates the ‘gay’ part of himself. He just connects romantically and emotionally with women in a way he doesn’t with men. Will that change? Perhaps. But right now he’s not 50-50 interested in men and women — it’s almost like he’s 100 percent and 100 percent, but in two different ways. Most of the time sexual attraction and romantic attraction will overlap, but for some bi people, there’s a discrepancy between the two.”

Sexuality is a spectrum and the Kinsey Scale is a useful way to talk about that spectrum

I identify as gay, but I’ve long considered myself a 5 on the Kinsey scale, which was developed in the 1940s and measures sexuality on a continuum from zero (exclusively heterosexual) to 6 (exclusively homosexual). Though I had sexual experiences with women in college that I enjoyed, my primary sexual and romantic interest has always been in men.
This article was one small sign that attitudes around bisexuality were changing, that people were ready to quit using bisexuality as a punchline and ready to start learning. Maybe some big social changes were taking place. It’s hard to measure something as abstract as societal acceptance of a sexual orientation, but there have been some very positive indicators in the 5 years since this article was published.

1) The world’s first Bi Pride

In September 2018, the city of West Hollywood (home to LA LGBTI Pride), in conjunction with amBi,  held the world’s 1st-ever citywide bi pride event. After a bi pride march through the streets of West Hollywood, Mayor John Duran made a Bisexual Day Proclamation and welcomed by revelers to the celebration.

2) Increased Visibility in the Political Sphere

A series of openly-bi politicians broke barriers and represented our community on the national stage. In 2016 Kate Brown was appointed the Governor Oregon when her predecessor resigned. She was then reelected in 2016 as an out bi woman. This not only made her America’s first openly LGBTI Governor elected to office, but also the highest-ranking LGBTI politician in US history.
Kate Brown was just the beginning though. Two years later, in 2018, Kyrsten Sinema was the first openly bi person elected to the U.S. Senate, and the first woman to represent Arizona in the Senate.

3) Marriage Equality in the U.S.

With its Obergefell v. Hodges decision, the Supreme Court of the United States legalized same-sex marriage across America in 2015. With that, the U.S.A. became the most populous country on the planet to offer everyone the right to marry the person they love, regardless of gender. Marriage is government recognition of a relationship, so marriage equality brought with it things like Social Security, Medicare, disability and veterans benefits, family medical insurance, inheritance and citizenship rights, and the ability to make medical decisions for each other.

4) Bisexuality at the United Nations

In March 2018, the U.N. had its first-ever discussion of bisexuality, a special side event of the Human Rights Council in Geneva. It was well-attended by representatives of governments across the globe and for many of them, it was their first-ever exposure to Bi-101. It was followed by a meeting with the office of the UN Independent Expert on protection against violence and discrimination based on sexual orientation and gender identity. It also led to the U.N. Free & Equal Campaign’s first-ever content on bisexuality.

5) Bi visibility in the media

We went from a handful of minor characters, villains, and oddballs in fiction, to major bi characters in many shows and films. Valkyrie and Deadpool in the Marvel Universe, Petra and Adam in Jane The VirginDarryl and Valencia in Crazy Ex-GirlfriendSarah Lance in The DC Universe, and countless others. We now have bi heroes and villains; monogamous bis and poly bis; superpower bis and average Joe bis; bi men and bi women all flashing across our screens. There’s even a bi reality dating show.
And it isn’t just in the fictional worlds that we are seeing bi representation. More and more actors, musicians, artists, politicians, and other public figures have been opening up about their bisexuality and shouting it from the rooftops.
Five years ago I spoke with the New York Times about the importance of bi visibility. In those five years we haven’t solved all of the world’s problems, but the future is looking brighter for us bi folks. We are still less likely to come out than our lesbian and gay peers, we still have problems finding romantic partners that accept us, and we still face discrimination too often from both straight and gay communities.
On the other hand, we are also seeing ourselves represented so much more. Bisexuality is much less of a stigma than it once was and more and more people are aware that bisexuality is real and that we deserve to be counted. The more of us that come out, that demand to be seen and counted, the easier it will be for others trying to do the same. Let’s keep up this momentum and hopefully in another 5 years, when someone else is posing for the cover of a magazine, they won’t have to doubt or fear being open about their bisexuality. They will be gleefully shouting it from the rooftops.

The Scientific Quest to Prove Bisexuality Exists

So much agonizing! Seven years later, not much of an issue except with religious bigots and other assorted Trumpists . . .

The Scientific Quest to Prove Bisexuality Exists

Cameron Harris, Michael Ryan Buckley and Kate Asson identify as bisexual (though they are not in a relationship with one another).Credit...Hannah Whitaker for The New York Times

by Benoit Denizet-Lewis | March 20, 2014
The traffic was bad, even by the warped standards of a Southern California commute. We were headed south from Los Angeles to San Diego on an overcast morning last spring, but we hadn’t moved in 10 minutes.
I was sandwiched in the back seat of the car between John Sylla and Denise Penn, two board members of the Los Angeles-based American Institute of Bisexuality (A.I.B.), a deep-pocketed group partly responsible for a surge of academic and scientific research across the country about bisexuality. We were on our way to an A.I.B. board meeting, where members would decide which studies to fund and also brainstorm ways to increase bisexual visibility “in a world that still isn’t convinced that bisexuality — particularly male bisexuality — exists,” as Allen Rosenthal, a sex researcher at Northwestern University, told me.
When someone suggested that we try another route, Sylla, A.I.B.’s friendly and unassuming 55-year-old president, opened the maps app on his iPhone. I met Sylla the previous day at A.I.B. headquarters, a modest two-room office on the first floor of a quiet courtyard in West Hollywood that’s also home to film-production companies and a therapist’s office. Tall and pale, with an easy smile, Sylla offered me books from A.I.B.’s bisexual-themed bookshelf and marveled at the unlikelihood of his bisexual activism. “For the longest time, I didn’t even realize I was bi,” Sylla said. “When I did, I assumed I’d probably just live a supposedly straight life in the suburbs somewhere.”
In the back seat, Sylla lifted his eyes from his phone and suggested an alternate course. Then he shrugged his shoulders. “We could go either way, really,” he told us. He smiled at me. “Get it? Either way?”
“This is what happens when you’re stuck in a car with bisexual activists,” said Brad S. Kane, who was behind the wheel. “More bisexual-themed puns and plays on words than any human should have to endure.”
A lawyer in his late 40s, Kane likes to call himself A.I.B.’s “token gay board member.” Though he had a relationship with a woman almost 20 years ago (and recently met a “French actress and rocker” to whom he was attracted), he’s primarily interested in men. “Everyone in A.I.B. seems to think I’m a closet bisexual,” he said, “but there are a host of emotional reasons why I choose to identify as gay. For one thing, it simplifies my life. To come out as bisexual now would be like starting over in some way. My mom and dad would fall over. It was hard enough to convince them that I was gay.”
I asked him why a man who identifies as gay was involved with A.I.B.
“Let me tell you a story,” he said, recalling the time he represented a heterosexual woman in a case against gay neighbors who were trying to have her dog put down. “People would say, ‘You’re gay — why aren’t you helping the gay couple?’ I’d say, ‘Because I always side with the underdog.’ The poor dog was in animal prison at animal control, with nobody to advocate for it. The dog needed help, needed a voice.” He paused and caught my eye in the rearview mirror. “You’re probably wondering where this is going and whether I’ll shut up anytime soon.”
“I knowIam,” said Ian Lawrence, a slender and youthful 40-year-old A.I.B. board member in the passenger seat.
“Well, bisexual people are kind of like that dog,” Kane said. “They’re misunderstood. They’re ignored. They’re mocked. Even within the gay community, I can’t tell you how many people have told me, ‘Oh, I wouldn’t date a bisexual.’ Or, ‘Bisexuals aren’t real.’ There’s this idea, especially among gay men, that guys who say they’re bisexual are lying, on their way to being gay, or just kind of unserious and unfocused.”
Lawrence, who struggled in college to understand and accept his bisexuality, nodded and recalled a date he went on with a gay television personality. When Lawrence said that he was bisexual, the man looked at him with a pained face and muttered: “Oh, I wish you’d told me that before. I thought this was a real date.”
Hoping to offer bisexuals a supportive community in 2010, Lawrence became the head organizer for amBi, a bisexual social group in Los Angeles. “All kinds of people show up to our events,” he told me. “There are older bi folks, kids who say they ‘don’t need any labels,’ transgender people — because many trans people also identify as bi. At our events, people can be themselves. They can be out.”
“Though most bisexuals don’t come out,” Sylla said. “Most bisexuals are in convenient opposite-sex relationships and aren’t open about their sexual orientation. Why would you be open, when there is so much biphobia?”
Spend any time hanging around bisexual activists, and you’ll hear a great deal about biphobia. You’ll also hear about bi erasure, the idea that bisexuality is systematically minimized and dismissed. This is especially vexing to bisexual activists, who point to a 2011 report by the Williams Institute — a policy center specializing in L.G.B.T. demographics — that reviewed 11 surveys and found that “among adults who identify as L.G.B., bisexuals comprise a slight majority.” In one of the larger surveys reviewed by the institute (a 2009 study published in The Journal of Sexual Medicine), 3.1 percent of American adults identified as bisexual, while 2.5 percent identified as gay or lesbian. (In most surveys, the institute found that women were “substantially more likely than men to identify as bisexual.”)
Then there’s the tricky matter of identity versus behavior. Joe Kort, a Michigan-based sex therapist whose next book is about straight-identified men who are married but who also have sex with men, says that “many never tell anyone about their bisexual experiences, for fear of losing relationships or having their reputation hurt. Consequently, they’re an invisible group of men. We know very little about them.”
Bisexuals are so unlikely to be out about their orientation — in a 2013 Pew Research Survey, only 28 percent of people who identified as bisexual said they were open about it — that the San Francisco Human Rights Commission recently called them “an invisible majority” in need of resources and support.
But in the eyes of many Americans, bisexuality — despite occasional and exaggerated media reports of its chicness — remains a bewildering and potentially invented orientation favored by men in denial about their homosexuality and by women who will inevitably settle down with men. Studies have found that straight-identified people have more negative attitudes about bisexuals (especially bisexual men) than they do about gays and lesbians, but A.I.B.’s board members insist that some of the worst discrimination and minimization comes from the gay community.
“It’s exhausting trying to keep up with all the ignorance that people spew about bisexuality,” Lawrence told me.
A.I.B., which was founded in 1998 by Fritz Klein, who was a wealthy bisexual psychiatrist, is countering that “ignorance” with a nearly $17 million endowment and a belief in the persuasive value of academic and scientific research. In the last few years, A.I.B. has supported the work of about 40 researchers, including those looking at bisexual behavior and mental health; sexual-arousal patterns of bisexual men; bisexual youth; and “mostly straight” men.
“We’re making great progress where there was little hard science,” said Sylla, who insisted that research “now completely validates that bisexual people exist.” A.I.B., he added, has moved on to more nuanced questions: “Can we see differences in the brains of bisexual people using f.M.R.I. technology? How many bisexual people are there — regardless of how they identify — and what range of relationships and life experiences do they have? And how can we help non-bi people understand and better accept bi people?”
That last goal might be the most difficult to achieve. As we piled out of the car, I told them about an episode of the HBO show “Girls,” in which a young male character remarked that bisexuals were one of two groups — the other was Germans — that “you can still make fun of.”
“As you can see,” Sylla told me, “we have some work to do.”
The first order of business at A.I.B.’s board meeting was a Skype session with Michael Bailey, a professor of psychology at Northwestern University who has managed to irritate a remarkably wide swath of the L.G.B.T. community.
Some of Bailey’s most vocal critics are bisexual activists, who were angered by a 2005 study he co-wrote titled “Sexual Arousal Patterns of Bisexual Men.” Bailey had long believed that women were more “bisexually oriented” than men. A 2004 study he did with Meredith Chivers (an associate professor of psychology at Queens University) showed that it didn’t matter so much whether a woman identified as straight or lesbian; most showed genital arousal to both male and female pornography. Men, in contrast, were more “bipolar,” as Bailey put it. Their arousal patterns tended to match their professed sexual orientation. If they said they were gay, usually they were aroused by male erotica; if they said they were heterosexual, female erotica turned them on.
But when Bailey and others tested self-described gay, straight and bisexual men the following year, they found one group — bisexuals — for whom identity and arousal didn’t appear to match. Though the men claimed to be turned on by men and women, in the lab their bodies told a different story. “Most bisexual men appeared homosexual in their genital arousal . . .” the authors wrote. “Male bisexuality appears primarily to represent a style of interpreting or reporting sexual arousal rather than a distinct pattern of . . . sexual arousal.”
The New York Times summarized the study’s findings with a headline that read: “Straight, Gay or Lying? Bisexuality Revisited.” “It was so disheartening,” recalled Ellyn Ruthstrom, the president of the Bisexual Resource Center in Boston. “It was this terrible moment where we all wondered, Do we really have to keep debating whether bisexuality exists? It fed into so many of the stereotypes that people believe about bisexuality — that bisexual people are lying to ourselves or to others, that we’re confused, that we can’t be trusted.”
While some bisexual activists filled Bailey’s email inbox with hate mail, Sylla invited Bailey to dinner. “I wanted to work with Mike and help him design a better study,” Sylla told me. “What I said to him early on was: ‘Of course there are bisexual men. You just haven’t found them yet.’ ” Bailey said he was skeptical, but he was impressed with Sylla’s civility and decided to hear him out. That turned out to be a smart decision: A few years later, A.I.B. became an important source of funding for research on bisexuals. Lisa Diamond, a professor of psychology at the University of Utah who receives A.I.B. support, told me, “It’s difficult to get funding to study sexual orientation for its own sake, unless you’re linking it to mental or physical health issues like H.I.V. or suicidality.”
At A.I.B.’s suggestion, Bailey did a second study in which he used more stringent criteria to find bisexual-identified test subjects. Instead of advertising in an alternative newspaper and gay magazines, Bailey’s team recruited men who placed online ads seeking sex with both members of a mixed-gender couple. The men also needed to have had romantic relationships with both men and women.
To Bailey’s surprise, the new study — published in 2011 and called “Sexual Arousal Patterns of Bisexual Men Revisited” — found that the bisexual men did in fact demonstrate “bisexual patterns of both subjective and genital arousal.” Their arousal pattern matched their professed orientation, and A.I.B., which had been criticized by some bisexual activists for working with Bailey, was vindicated.
On the day I attended the group’s board meeting in San Diego, Bailey was seeking funding for new research. But before he could outline it for the board, someone in the room joked, “You’re not going to do one of those demonstrations, are you?” It was a reference to a controversial session of Bailey’s 2011 Human Sexuality class at Northwestern, during which a female guest speaker was brought to orgasm by her male partner using a sex toy.
Bailey, who seemed like he didn’t hear the joke, went into an explanation of his proposed study, which I was surprised to hear wouldn’t include any actual bisexuals. Instead, he planned to test the arousal patterns of 60 gay-identified men.
“We’re interested in the role that sexual inhibition can play in people’s sexuality, in ways that might be relevant to sexual identity or capacity,” he began. “There’s evidence from prior studies that if you start with a stimulus that might turn on a gay guy — say, two guys [being sexual] — and then add a woman to the scene, some gay men are going to be inhibited by that and feel less aroused, while others won’t see their arousal decrease. A subset of bisexual-identified men might be explained by that.”
“How so?” I asked.
Carlos Legaspy, an A.I.B. board member from Chicago, tried to clarify: “There’s some indication that what makes a bisexual person may be less about what they’re strongly attracted to and more about what they’re not averse to.”
“So,” I said, “the hypothesis is that some gay guys think they’re bisexual because they’re not turned off by the idea of being with women?”
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‘‘As soon as I started noticing boys, I started noticing girls, too. I kind of oscillated in my head between, ‘I’m gay, no, I’m straight!’ depending on who I was having a crush on at the time. And then my freshman year of college my friends and I kind of talked about it, and they were like, you know there is such a thing as bisexual people. That’s probably what you are. And I was like, ‘What? No!’ ’’
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Bailey nodded and went on to say that he would be testing two different groups of gay men: half who said they wouldn’t lose their arousal if a woman was in a pornographic scene with two men, and half who said they would.
“Is there any concern of an effect of a twosome versus a threesome?” Sylla asked aloud. “Some guys might be turned on or off by a particular threesome scenario.”
“I don’t think we would have a problem adding a stimulus of an all-male threesome (as a comparison), which should take care of that,” Bailey said.
Though Sylla often told me that he “believes in academic freedom and scientific study” and that A.I.B. “doesn’t put its thumb on the scale,” he makes no apologies for seeking input into the design of A.I.B.-supported studies. Some of the group’s board members, for example, had previously expressed concern to Bailey and other researchers about the quality of the pornography they were using to test bisexual arousal.
“They used videos where the women looked cracked out, had long press-on nails and seemed miserable,” Lawrence told me. “The idea that you could accurately judge someone’s bisexuality by showing them that kind of porn was really astonishing to me. If you do love and respect women, that kind of porn should repel you.”
Baily and other A.I.B.-supported researchers insisted that while they welcomed A.I.B.’s input, the group’s funding didn’t impact their results. “Not only do I not compromise science for money,” Bailey said, “but I don’t really care whether my results upset people. The number of different identity groups that have disliked my findings should be proof of that.”
On the day before A.I.B.’s board meeting, I joined Sylla and a young bisexual writer and actor named Joe Filippone outside Book Soup, a bookstore in West Hollywood. We were standing in a long line for a chance to meet the music mogul Clive Davis, who had recently declared that “to call me anything other than bisexual would be inaccurate.” Maybe “meet” is too strong a word; we were waiting with everyone else for Davis to sign a copy of his book, “The Soundtrack of My Life.”
Sylla brought a “goody bag” to the signing for Davis — inside were A.I.B.-affiliated books and literature, as well as pens, wristbands and lollipops emblazoned with “bisexual” and “” (A.I.B.’s website). “It’s great anytime someone can be honest about who they are,” Sylla said, smiling in the late afternoon sun. “But Clive Davis coming out as bi is big news.”
Though a number of famous women have said they’re bisexual (including Drew Barrymore, Anna Paquin, Megan Fox and Azealia Banks), few big-name men have followed suit. And because Davis was 80, it would be difficult for skeptics to dismiss his declaration as one of a confused young man who would surely grow out of his bisexual phase, as the gay writer Andrew Sullivan suggested months later about the 19-year-old British diver Tom Daley. Daley had said in a YouTube video that he was happily dating a man but was still interested in women.
Sullivan predicted that Daley would “never have a sexual relationship with a woman again, because his assertion that he still fancies girls is a classic bridging mechanism to ease the transition to his real sexual identity. I know this because I did it, too.”
Sullivan’s logic is particularly frustrating to Sylla and other bisexual activists. Though they agree that many gay men use bisexuality as a transition identity — sometimes as a way to soften the blow of coming out to parents — “gay men seem to have a hard time fathoming that someone might have an honestly different trajectory,” Sylla said. (Gay men aren’t the only ones. In an episode of “Sex and the City,” Carrie Bradshaw dates a bi guy and suspects that he’s just on “a layover on the way to Gaytown.”)
Bisexual activists told me that much of what gay and lesbian people believe about bisexuality is wrong and is skewed by a self-reinforcing problem: because of biphobia, many bisexuals don’t come out. But until more bisexuals come out, the stereotypes and misinformation at the heart of biphobia won’t be seriously challenged. “The only ‘bisexual’ people that many gays and lesbians know are the ones who ended up gay,” a bisexual woman in Columbus, Ohio, told me. When she tells her gay and lesbian friends about studies showing that bisexuals outnumber them, “they look at me funny and say, ‘That’s strange, because I don’t know any bisexual people.’ ”
But biphobia doesn’t tell the whole story of bisexual invisibility. According to the 2013 Pew Research Survey of L.G.B.T.-identified Americans, bisexuals are less likely than gays and lesbians “to view their sexual orientation as important to their overall identity.” That feeds into a belief among some gays and lesbians that bisexuals are essentially fence-sitters who can pass for straight for decades at a time and aren’t especially invested in the L.G.B.T. community.
Gay distrust of bisexuals has a long history: The first officially recognized gay organization, the Society for Human Rights, founded in Chicago in 1924, tried to exclude them. In the 1990s, groups like BiNet USA (a national bisexual advocacy organization) began successfully lobbying reluctant gay groups to add the “B” to their names, even as bisexual men were blamed for spreading H.I.V. to women. In 1992, a gay journal spoke for many in the gay and lesbian community when it wrote skeptically about bisexuals under the headline, “What Do Bisexuals Want?”
Recently, I jokingly asked a bisexual friend of mine, Earnie Gardner, what he “wanted.” He said he hoped the gay and lesbian community would “step up and support bisexual people.” But then he added something else. “I really wish everyone could experience how extraordinary it is to be able to fall in love with people regardless of their gender,” he said. “I once told a straight friend who couldn’t really understand my bisexuality: ‘Hey, just because you’re incapable of finding the beauty in both genders, don’t hold your deficiencies against me. You have a handicap, I don’t.’ But, somehow, I’m seen as the strange one, the one who doesn’t fit into our obsession with everything being black or white, straight or gay.”
Gardner could think of only one place where there’s an upside to broadcasting a bisexual identity — gay chat rooms and online hookup sites. “It’s really the only place where you’ll get a medal for being bi,” he said. “Being bisexual, or claiming to be bisexual, has currency there, probably because bi guys are often perceived as being more ‘masculine’ than gay guys. Gay guys don’t usually want to have a relationship with a bi guy, but they sure want to have sex with him.”
Bisexual women also struggle to find lesbians willing to date them — or even to take them seriously. The bisexual activist and speaker Robyn Ochs told me that when she realized in college that she was bisexual, she hoped to be honest about that with the lesbians on her campus. “But it didn’t feel safe for me to do that,” she said. “They said that bisexuals couldn’t be trusted, that they would inevitably leave you for a man. Had I come out as lesbian, I could have been welcomed with open arms, taken to parties, invited to join the softball team. The lesbian red carpet, if you will. But for me to say I was a lesbian would have required that I dismiss all of my previous attractions to men as some sort of false consciousness. So I didn’t come out.”
That lack of support and community likely has health implications. Brian Dodge, a leading researcher on bisexuality and health at Indiana University, Bloomington, guest-edited a special health issue of the Journal of Bisexuality (an A.I.B.-supported quarterly publication). He found that compared with their exclusively homosexual and heterosexual counterparts, bisexuals have reported higher rates of depression, anxiety, substance use, victimization by violence, suicidal ideation and sexual-health concerns. Dodge blames many of those problems on the stigma and discrimination that bisexuals face. “Put simply,” he said, “it’s not easy to be bisexual.”
As the line outside Book Soup slowly inched forward, Sylla quizzed Filippone on his sexual history. “How would you rank your amount of sexual curiosity?” Sylla wanted to know. A.I.B. had recently funded a study looking into the connection between bisexuality and sexual curiosity, and Sylla had taken to asking every bisexual person he met whether they felt unusually curious.
“At this point there isn’t much I haven’t tried,” Filippone said with a laugh, “so I don’t have much to be curious about anymore.” He added that he identifies as polyamorous. “When I’m with men, I want to be with women. When I’m with women, I want to be with men. Eventually I just stopped trying to choose and started seeing both at the same time.”
Sylla said that he’s content with his male partner of 17 years. “At my age, you know . . .” he said, his voice trailing off. He finished his thought a few beats later. “Researcher Lisa Diamond heard a great quote that fits perfectly for many bisexuals I know: ‘I can drive a blue car, or I can drive a red car. But I have a one-car garage.’ ”
In college, Sylla happily dated women but also had two secretive relationships with men. He never had “emotionless sex,” he said, and the sex of the person he was interested in was less important than his romantic and intellectual connection to them. Still, he didn’t see himself as bisexual. “I really didn’t think about my sexual identity back then,” he told me.
At 30, Sylla married a woman. When that ended four years later (in addition to normal marital stressors, his ex-wife worried about his previous same-sex experiences), Sylla attended an English-speaking men’s support group in Paris, where he lived at the time. “We all started talking about our identities,” Sylla recalled. “One guy said, ‘Well, I’m gay.’ Another said he was straight. When it came to me, I said, ‘Well, I guess I’m bisexual.’ If I looked back at my behavior and relationships, the label fit. It was a deductive process.”
He ended up in a three-year relationship with the gay man from that group, and in 1994 they moved together to Los Angeles. When that relationship fizzled, Sylla said he had “pretty much decided to go back to women” but hoped to find a female partner who would understand bisexual men. He visited the L.A. Gay and Lesbian Center in search of resources and “a bisexual community,” but he found neither. Before leaving, Sylla picked up a copy of a local gay newspaper with an article by Mike Szymanski, a bisexual writer and activist, who would go on to co-write the book “The Bisexual’s Guide to the Universe.”
“I would like to get involved in the bisexual movement, and I would like to meet you,” Sylla wrote in a letter to Szymanski, who had just ended a relationship with a woman. Sylla and Szymanski have been together ever since.
Sylla joined A.I.B.’s board in 1999, working closely with the group’s founder, Fritz Klein. A tall, gentle man with a booming voice, Klein lived modestly despite his wealth and seemed singularly focused on educating the world about bisexuality and promoting healthy relationships among bisexuals. “It is the quality of loving, not the gender of love’s objects, that should come under fire,” he wrote.
When Klein died in 2006, Sylla told me, he left a sizable portion of his fortune to the organization he founded. “He wanted the work to continue,” Sylla said as we approached the table where Clive Davis was signing books. Davis wore a dark suit and was flanked on either side by a bodyguard and a store employee, neither of whom seemed keen on letting us chitchat with the music mogul — or even hand him the gift bag. “I’ll make sure Mr. Davis gets that,” the store employee said, plucking it from Sylla’s hands.
Not one to get easily flustered, Sylla smiled and politely asked Davis, “Could you please make out the inscription to A.I.B.?”
“A.I.B.?” Davis replied.
“Yes, the American Institute of Bisexuality.”
Davis chuckled and flashed Sylla a smile.
Last May, Itraveled to Cornell University to meet Ritch Savin-Williams and Gerulf Rieger, two psychologists using A.I.B. funding to study bisexual identity and behavior.
They had just completed the study that explored the link between bisexuality and sexual curiosity. Rieger told me that researchers know very little about the connection between personality and sexual orientation, and he found that bisexual men have higher levels of sexual curiosity (defined as being interested in things like watching other people have sex or participating in orgies) than straight or gay men. The study also showed that an especially high level of sexual curiosity might explain why some bisexual-identified men show arousal to both men and women in a lab, while others don’t.
To test male arousal, Rieger and Savin-Williams use a pupil-dilation tracker instead of a genital monitor. The degree of pupil dilation has been found to correspond to self-reported sexual attraction and orientation, and Rieger, who used to work in Bailey’s lab at Northwestern, said that it can be more accurate in some ways than a genital measure. (Savin-Williams told me that when he volunteered in the 1970s for an early pupil-dilation study of sexual orientation at the University of Chicago, he was “scared to death, because I knew it was telling the truth about my sexuality.”)
Rieger suggested that I try out the eye-tracker for myself. I had already visited Bailey’s lab at Northwestern, where Allen Rosenthal used a “penile-strain gauge” (which measures the changing circumference of the penis) to assess my arousal and ran me through a test similar to the one he administered to bisexual men in 2011. I was curious whether the process would accurately reflect my professed orientation. I identify as gay, but I’ve long considered myself a 5 on the Kinsey scale, which was developed in the 1940s and measures sexuality on a continuum from zero (exclusively heterosexual) to 6 (exclusively homosexual). Though I had sexual experiences with women in college that I enjoyed, my primary sexual and romantic interest has always been in men. I figured that as a Kinsey 5, though, I might show some arousal to the all-female videos. I certainly didn’t consider myself “averse” to female sexuality. (Alfred Kinsey, himself bisexual, found that many people were between 1 and 5 on his scale and argued that “males do not represent two discrete populations, heterosexual and homosexual. The world is not to be divided into sheep and goats.”)
In the sparse testing room at Northwestern, I undressed and sat on a vinyl armchair covered with a disposable sheet. Through an intercom, Rosenthal assured me that he couldn’t see into the room; he would instead be monitoring my arousal in real time by looking at a line on his computer screen. I was instructed to move as little as possible once I applied the gauge, lest the line start to look “spiky like a polygraph.”
Thirty minutes later, after I watched scenes involving men, women or both, I exited the testing room eager to hear my results.
“So, how gay am I?” I asked Rosenthal.
“Pretty gay,” he said with a laugh, adding that my genital response was “typical for a homosexual man.” He said I showed practically no arousal to the lesbian scenes, though I was turned on by a video involving men and women, especially when the men interacted. Still, I was much less averse to women than another gay man who took the test after me — according to the line on Rosenthal’s computer screen, that man didn’t experience arousal when a woman joined the men.
At Cornell, my eyes told a different story. In the small eye-tracking testing room, I watched a series of clips of men and women masturbating. Rieger told me that for most men, their pupil dilation is a strong predictor of their sexual identity. But my professed identity (mostly gay) didn’t match my pupil response. “You dilated almost twice as much as a regular gay man and almost as much as a regular straight man to women,” Rieger told me. “Your pupils actually tell me that you’re more bi than gay.”
That was news to me. I felt a sudden kinship with the self-described bisexual men in Bailey’s original 2005 study, who must have been surprised to learn that they had their sexual orientation all wrong. I could imagine a potentially awkward scenario the next time someone asked me if I was into men or women. “Well, now, that depends on whether you believe the sex researchers at Northwestern or Cornell,” I might have to say.
Rieger’s suggestion did throw me for a momentary loop. Might I actually be bisexual? Have I been so wedded to my gay identity — one I adopted in college and announced with great fanfare to family and friends — that I haven’t allowed myself to experience another part of myself? In some ways, even asking those questions is anathema to many gays and lesbians. That kind of publicly shared uncertainty is catnip to the Christian Right and to the scientifically dubious, psychologically damaging ex-gay movement it helped spawn. As out gay men and lesbians, after all, we’re supposed to be sure — we’re supposed to be “born this way.” It’s a politically important position (one that’s helping us achieve marriage equality and other rights), but it leaves little space for out gay men to muddy the waters with talk of Kinsey 4s and 5s.
Bisexuality, too, is politically problematic. Are bisexuals born bisexual? Where does choice come into the picture? John Sylla’s longtime partner, Mike Szymanski, told me that his parents didn’t accept his bisexual identity. “If you’re born that way and you can’t choose, that’s something we can accept, but if you like both, then you do have a choice,” Szymanski’s mother told him.
Unlike Szymanski, I don’t believe I’m bisexual — no matter what my pupils suggest. It doesn’t feel true as a sexual orientation, nor does it feel right as my identity. And though I don’t discount the value of studying arousal in a lab setting, I spoke to several bisexual activists who did. Sexuality, they told me, is far too complex to be quantified by our reaction to pornography. “Sure, sexual orientation is partly about our response to visual stimuli,” Robyn Ochs told me. “But it’s about other sensory inputs too. And it’s about our emotional response. Sexuality is so complex, and I worry that valuable funding dollars are going to studies that don’t actually really tell us all that much about bisexuality.”
To their credit, both Rieger and Savin-Williams were thoughtful in their conversations with me about the challenges of studying bisexuality. Savin-Williams, in particular, said he was mostly interested in understanding the “incredible diversity” among bisexuals. He told me about one young man he interviewed whose arousal looked “extraordinarily gay” in the lab. But he was romantically interested in only women. “He falls madly in love with girls all over the place,” Savin-Williams said, “and it’s not because he hates the ‘gay’ part of himself. He just connects romantically and emotionally with women in a way he doesn’t with men. Will that change? Perhaps. But right now he’s not 50-50 interested in men and women — it’s almost like he’s 100 percent and 100 percent, but intwo different ways. Most of the time sexual attraction and romantic attraction will overlap, but for some bisexual people, there’s a discrepancy between the two.”
Rieger nodded. “People constantly surprise you,” he said, recalling one young man who announced that he was “50-50 bisexual” but who only showed arousal to women in the lab. “His arousal was like a perfect straight guy,” Rieger told me.
“Sounds like he’s romantically attracted to guys but sexually attracted to women,” Savin-Williams said. “I think there’s a lot more sexual complexity and nuance among men than researchers have assumed for years.”
I heard something similar from Lisa Diamond, who has spent much of her career studying identity and same-sex attraction in women. She had long assumed that men were much less likely to be “sexually fluid,” but she has since changed her mind. At a conference in Austin in February, she presented a paper that summarized the initial findings from her survey of 394 people — including gay men, lesbians, bisexual men and women and heterosexual men and women. It was called: “I Was Wrong! Men Are Pretty Darn Sexually Fluid, Too!”
Diamond had her subjects, who were between 18 and 35, fill out an extensive questionnaire about their sexual attractions and identity at various points in their lives. She was surprised to find that almost as many men transitioned at some point from a gay identity to a bisexual, queer or unlabeled one, as did from a bisexual identity to a gay identity. Thirty-five percent of gay men also reported experiencing other-sex attractions in the past year, and 10 percent of gay men reported other-sex sexual behavior during the same period. “I think our categories of gay versus bisexual don’t capture all the important space in between,” she said.
There is perhaps no demographic group more likely to revel in the space between sexual-identity categories — or to obliterate them altogether — than college students.
Last spring at the College of Wooster in Ohio, I attended a student-run event titled “Not So Straight and Narrow: An Introduction to Bisexual, Pansexual and Fluid Identities.” Robyn Ochs said events like that, and a marked increase in bisexual and transgender activism among young people challenging long-held beliefs about gender and sexuality, will most likely do more to change cultural perceptions of bisexuality than any laboratory research will.
At the Wooster event, which was attended mostly by students who identified as something other than heterosexual, the moderators explained that many young people reject the “gender binary” — or the classification of gender as two polarized expressions of masculinity and femininity. Many of the students in the room felt that their gender identity was not so easily categorized. Nor, too, was their sexual orientation — it certainly didn’t fit into neat binary classifications like gay or straight.
The moderators defined bisexuality as being attracted “to one or more genders.” “Bi means two, except not really,” a moderator said. “Bisexuality was initially defined as being attracted to both men and women, but it’s being reclaimed and expanded. For example, being bisexual can now mean being attracted to women and to feminine-identified trans people.”
(Ochs has developed a widely used definition of bisexuality that takes these changes into account: “I call myself bisexual because I acknowledge that I have in myself the potential to be attracted — romantically and/or sexually — to people of more than one sex and/or gender, not necessarily at the same time, not necessarily in the same way and not necessarily to the same degree.”)
Still, as enthusiastic and supportive as everyone appeared to be at the Wooster event, there’s the real world to consider. When students were asked to shout out myths that they’d heard about bisexuals, they had plenty: “You just need to decide.” “You want an excuse to sleep with anyone.” “You can’t be faithful.” “You’re really just gay.” “You must have an S.T.D.” “It’s a phase.” “You just want attention.”
A bisexual male student, who didn’t attend the event, told me later that even his more liberal and accepting friends assumed he was gay even after he came out as bisexual. “It was only when I slept with a few girls at school that I shut them up,” he said.
A.I.B. is currently funding several studies exploring the experience of bisexual youth, including several by Eric Anderson, a sociologist at the University of Winchester, in England. Anderson, who is working on a book about bisexuality, said that much of the research into bisexual people is skewed by biased samples. “To find bisexuals, many researchers have gone to L.G.B.T. support groups or other places where you’re going to find people who feel they need support or who are outcasts in some way,” he said. “But many bisexuals — especially many bisexual young people — don’t need support and are doing great.”
In 2011, Anderson and two co-authors hit the streets of New York City, Los Angeles and London in search of bisexual men to interview. “Bisexual men, we’re paying $40 for academic research!” the researchers shouted in 20-second intervals at several locations in each city.
Anderson and his team conducted in-depth interviews with 90 openly bisexual men they met using their unconventional method, including many bisexuals of color. The researchers found that the younger men had significantly more positive bisexual coming-out experiences. They also noted that they “appeared more confident, socially competent and at ease discussing their sexuality.”
This didn’t come as a surprise to Anderson, who wrote that “the liberalization of attitudes toward homosexuality in American cultures has also been beneficial for bisexual men.” Even heterosexual young men are helped by this trend, Anderson told me. “There’s substantially less homophobia and biphobia among young people than adults,” he said, “and if you scroll through the photos of young straight-identified men on Facebook, you’d think that many of them were bisexual. Guys are just much more physically demonstrative with each other, much more playful and affectionate, than they were a decade or two ago.”
Anderson believes that the “one-time rule of homosexuality” — the assumption that if a guy has one same-sex experience, then he must be gay or bisexual — is no longer considered valid by many young people.
“I ask male youth, ‘Can a guy have sex with a guy once and not be gay,’ and they say: ‘Of course. He could be bi, or straight, or just trying,’ ” Anderson said. “When I interview young men about their identity, I hear a lot of, ‘I’m mostly straight,’ or ‘I hookup with a guy every once in a while.’ These guys don’t usually identify as bisexual, but some of them will tell me: ‘I’m not really sure what I am. Maybe I am bisexual.’ ”
Anderson added that many young people aren’t sure what qualifies as bisexual: “Does their attraction have to be 50-50? What about if it’s 80-20? Should they still consider themselves bisexual then? Should they adopt that identity? Many young men don’t know, and they’re not in a rush to put a label on that uncertainty.”
On my last night with A.I.B. in Los Angeles, I joined John Sylla and Mike Szymanski for dinner. Szymanski isn’t involved with A.I.B., but like Sylla, he’s a longtime bisexual activist. As a young man, Szymanski identified as gay and even worked for a gay magazine, but he surprised himself by falling in love with a woman. “So I had to sneak around with my girlfriend,” he told me, “lest I start a scandal at the office.”
Though I spent enough time talking to bisexual people to know that there’s one question that annoys them above all others, I couldn’t help myself. After a glass or two of wine, I heard myself asking Sylla if he was “more attracted” to men or women. I had assumed that the answer would be men, because he’d been with Szymanski for 17 years — and they’re monogamous, according to what Szymanski wrote in “The Bisexual’s Guide to the Universe.”
Sylla smiled patiently and told me that in a purely physical sense, he was probably more interested in women. “But my attraction to a person doesn’t have much to do with their body parts,” he said.
“But do you feel any internal or external pressure to identify as gay, because you’ve been together so long?” I asked.
Szymanski chuckled. “It used to be an annual conversation with my parents at Thanksgiving. ‘Still bisexual? Still bisexual?’ ” he said. “But we don’t ask straight people about the last time they had sex and then suggest that they aren’t actually heterosexual if it’s been a while.”
Sylla added that it was important — both for his own sense of authenticity and for bisexual visibility — to continue to publicly identify as bisexual. “The world needs more out bi people so that bisexuals can find support and community, just like gay people have when they come out,” he said. “Many bisexuals just end up saying they’re gay if they’re with a same-sex person or straight if they’re with an opposite-sex person. It’s easier to do that — you don’t have to constantly correct people or deal with people’s stereotypes about bisexuality and fidelity.”
Szymanski told me about two female friends of theirs who only dated men until meeting each other late in life. “They’re pretty militant about their lesbianism now,” Szymanski said, “but I’ll ask them, ‘Did you have really great sex with guys?’ They nod. ‘Did you have orgasms?’ They nod. ‘Could you still have them?’ They nod. But they insist that they’re lesbians, because, I think, they’re convinced it’s in their best interest to identify that way.”
“Another case of bisexual invisibility,” Sylla said.
“Yes, and it’s strange to me,” Szymanski added. “Because wouldn’t their behavior suggest something different? Wouldn’t it suggest that they’re actually, you know, bisexual?”